Right After Luria Left
The day Luria left, she and I went downtown to Dallas. She ostensibly had a lunch meeting with a producer of the local Fox morning show and I needed to get my chef’s knife sharpened at Sur La Table. She dropped me off, and I did my thing.While I was there, I bought her some baking gadgets and a paella pan for me.
She texted me to say she lost track of time and would be awhile longer. I told her I would walk from Knox-Henderson to Borders in uptown Dallas. No worries. I did. A couple hours later she picked me up.
We laughed in the car on the way back home to Keller. We stopped at Central Market and bought $60 worth of ingredients to make paella. I had a new pan! We got home, unloaded the groceries, and Luria remembered that she needed to pick up some dry cleaning. I put away the groceries and got a call about five minutes later. Luria told me that John had removed her clothes and all our production gear from the house and that she would not be coming back.
It was a nightmare. Everything had been stolen from the house. Drobos, Macs, cameras, lights … everything required to produce GeekBrief.TV. They left my MacBook Pro, a mic and my 5D Mark II.
After I went to visit Geoff Smith in Nashville, she returned some of the gear so I could continue writing and editing GeekBrief.TV.
I prayed to a god I hoped was real, and I started to try to figure out what was going on. None of it made sense. I sat down in front of the camera and talked about what I was going through. My career has been to share my life on film online. I shot these films not knowing what was going on and I shared them with a few friends. They have been password protected until today.
These videos aren’t entertaining. People who have seen them say they are hard to watch. They document my pain. I got the Love Diaries and tried to work through that, but Luria wouldn’t respond. I only did a few and here they are:
(BTW … I haven’t watched them since I made them. I’m adding comments as I watch.)
She gave me the DVD back unwatched, I guess. I no longer have faith in God to help.
The way I hurt her was to say over and and over for a year the John P. should be out of our marriage.
I no longer believe God is able.
The thing we went through? Me not liking John trying to take our business. She loved that!
I miss that girl!
This one really pisses me off. I ended up giving the Valentine’s gift to Dave Curlee to give to his wife and then he went to work for the thieves. On the upside, it’s where I think I thought of the idea to fade between color and black and white.
And then I stopped trying. Sometimes I wonder if I should have gone after her. I let her go. I’m always about freedom, but I think I blew it.
Well Neal, I have been trying to be fair with you on this crazy situation, as a male and a person that aso felt the world ended after a relationship breaks, I have been inclined to think you were the victim. Still think you are.
But I have to ask: Man! Whst did you do to her?. IMHO she have done one of the most horrible things I have never seen: leaving the way she did, stealing your intelectual and phusical property. Taking the Calli Lewis brand as it were hers alone and leaving you with nothing. I sill dont know if she also leave you romanticly for this John fucker. I dont know that but I will not get shot if she did, cus a good way for him to make her steal everything from you will be making her fall inlove with him and then use that as an advantadge.
I use to love Luria was like a brite beacon every few days that bring happy shiny tech news and make me feel better, I realiize that she was the face but you were the words, so I ahve to say you were also responsable to make me feel good too, even shen she is pretty I had a little crush on her (sorry but Im been honest) and now I also fell hearbroken for what she did to you, I also feel she broke my heart seen what is she capable of.
Man… What did you do to her? how did you hurt her so much? as you say you make her bad, was smth so bad that justifed even a little bit what she did to you?. If I knew i could then realize if she was a monster to you or you jus got wha you deserved but in a very rude way. I mean all the sharade of the day she left.
What did you did to her Neal?
I was clinically depressed.
Ok, that was no reason to leave you, and even less reason to leave you since you didnt hurt her, you were in need of support and she opt not to deal with it and seek maney/fame.